Depression doesn’t fade, it doesn’t get easier to deal with. Its like there is someone inside of you telling you that you aren’t good enough and never will be. You try and tell that voice that sounds so much like your own to shut up and go away but day in and day out he gets louder until its like a scream and everything good feels like its has been drained from you. You know you cant deal on your own but you cant ask for help because you just don’t feel you are worth the effort because in the end you start to believe every word that he has told you. You know he is right and has won.